Courage

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The only courage that matters is the kind that gets you from one moment to the next.

Mignon McLaughlin

(I don’t know what caused that bird-god-Mayan-like shadow as I swam in an otherwise empty pool. I only know I gasped when I saw the photo as if it was Mystery’s reflection, as if it was Divine revelation guiding me if only I could decipher the language.)

Dear Robin…R.I.P.

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Carpe diem! and O Captain! my Captain!phrases that Robin Williams so fully embodied that they inspired our loyalty and people of all walks to seize the day in our blink-of-an-eye lives. On August 11, 2014, we lost one of our best…a man with the courage to make us laugh and the ability to ignite our humanity. After Robin William’s death, impromptu memorials emerged as a way to express our palpable love, appreciation and grief.

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He portrayed the complexity of existence even as he blindsided us with laughter and tears.

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photo by Elizabeth

Robin conveyed our shared stories through different slants: the loving dad with a failed career and marriage; our shared fragility and resilience from the perspective of a teacher, doctor, therapist, lone leader living on the street, radio hero and his solo performance on Broadway, all of which raised our spirits and deepened our compassion.

photo by Elizabeth
photo by Elizabeth
photo by Elizabeth

Robin Williams was the most brilliant comic of our era with his mercurial mind and physicality. He disarmed and enlivened us with rapid-fire humor and astute observations and connections while making us laugh in the face of our mortality and circumstance.

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photo by Elizabeth

Though suicide affects a family for generations, perhaps Robin saw this quick death as the most loving choice rather than “burdening” his immediate family with the ruthless decline that Parkinson’s exacts.

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photo by Elizabeth

I can only imagine how difficult this choice was given his depth, courage, exceptional mind and generous heart.

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photo by Elizabeth

And he treated others with an exceptional kindness that has been attested to repeatedly by family, friends and co-workers.

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Both College of Marin and Julliard drama students benefit from Robin Williams scholarships, and he regularly broke the “normal” separation between film “artists” and “crew,” such as when he offered a crew member half of his candy bar. As he split the candy, Robin said, “Look, two bars in one!”

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photo by Elizabeth

I offer these photographs from a memorial in front of the house in which Mrs. Doubtfire was filmed. With gratitude and love to Robin and deep sorrow for his family and loved ones.

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Oh, Captain, my Captain, thank you!

And may each of you seize the day!

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photo by Elizabeth
photo by Elizabeth

Galloping

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Charly, photo by N. Garvin; poem by Elizabeth

GALLOPING

when I ride give
me not a saddle
but the force of
blood-filled muscles
moving against 
my thighs and salt-
wet hair rubbing
moist threads from jeans
let me not ride to
save myself from
walking but to
fill with wind and
thunder as we
gallop pressed so
close hooves and
breath our mine

Thank you to the editor of Something Like Homesickness for first publishing this poem.